December 27, 2010

• Ending on a Good note…

  

  So guys no protected post but a sum of whats been going on
  I’ve been moving on and dealing with my ex, but there has been some hate still in me… If you know me enough I can’t hate someone too long, nor can I be angry at someone it just eats me away.  I don’t drink emotionally or drown myself in work.  I actually drown myself around friends and good people.  I look on the brighter side of things and look to have fun.  As you can see i’ve been partying and drink quite a bit.  ( watching tron drunk was fun!) 

  Note* I don’t even drink this much since i’ve been always responsible and uptight… but life is short and tough… I decided to drink a bit more but I hold myself responsible for every action and decision I make.  I never drink and drive and if I wasn’t able to drive I would always wait it out or ask a friend to drive.   The main reason why I drive and don’t drink much is in case anyone needs to go home or isn’t feeling well i’m always ready to take them home.  I also go out of my way to make sure people get home safe.

  Today there was a big snow storm in nyc and I was out driving to look at honda fits, for my little brother.  On the way home my car hydroplaned at a very low speed and we spun really quick maybe almost a full 360.  I think life flashed before my eyes today…

  I decided to undo a lot of the hate that has been lying around with some past people and friends.  Regardless of whose fault, I said my apologies and wanted to try to make a new start at things.  I’m not the best person when it comes to arguing or apologizing but I try my best and only mean well..

  One of the big things i’d let go was my ex, in every way possible i thought that i’d never resolve things if I continue to hate her or ignore her.  I know people say time will do wonders, but who am I kidding i’m the type of person if it doesn’t make sense I need to understand why… its just in my nature and blood.  Instead I decided to do the adult thing and talk to my friend’s about it and ask them what should I be doing becasue they are also friends with her.  I know they side with me to make me feel better, but honestly i dont see how time will help me.  I want to move on I thought I moved passed all this but I’m still stuck with a ball and chain on my leg…   The reason why is I can’t hate her for the rest of my life even if I was done wrong or it was a mis understanding, not matter how messed up it is I can’t hold a grudge or any level of hate towards her.  It would eat me alive…

  So I’m going to do yet the adult thing to do is to forgive and forget what has been done.  Try to make amends, even though it maybe hard at first but I will try to end things on a good note or atleast put the effort in doing this for myself.
  This is my End of the year Resolution…
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  So I dumped 1900 on a Profession lighting setup its actually like 3000 something… but got an discount =)
  A few friends of mine who are also photographers are getting a studio together so i would be the 4th one in the group and we would run it as a group.  We got this great location if everything goes well hopefully its up and running this febuary!

  I’m hoping to step up my game with photography =)

  Here are some nice cars

  

  cl 63

  

  shelby

  

  audi r8

  

  ford gt with the stupid doors…

  

  panera asiago roast beef

  

  curry fish balls at sunway

  

  beef pan fried noodles sunway

  

  porkchop rice at excellent pork chop chinatown ny

  

  red sauce dumplings

  

  Some friends at ktv and drinking =P

  

  peach soju yumm in st marks

  

  a good high school friend who I still keep in touch today… LoL another girl who I thought was interested was not lol
  but then again shes been my friend since high school I’d doubt she sees me that way.

  Thats all folks
  Happy New Years and be safe!

   

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