long exposure tonight =)

subways crossing and forming a helix along the queens bridge and shot through a window screen.

I guess I failed new years resolution to quit xanga lol…

didn’t really do anything too crazy for nye, but its okay maybe next year.

 

picture =P

 

bk brige

 

 

59th bridge

 

 

nyc from roosevelt island

 

 

Lamborghini

 

 

rockerfeller tree

 

 

brooklyn bridge

 

 

bk promenade

 

 

on top of the rock

rockerfeller

 

so 500 balloons after a holiday party

this is what you get

someones cubical full of ballons

asian standing next to balloons = up? im not that chubby !

emo blue balloon

attempting to clean up = fun

Had way too much fun its a mess again

 

 

 

 

Holidays are coming, I really don’t like holidays I’ve always been a loner/ wander with holidays.  I realize the past couple years when i’m not in a relationship I don’t hang with my friend and plan anything for xmas or new years I just leave it open and free.  Pretty much wing anything last minute and just go with it.  Last year was going to maryland for new years eve with the xangans.  Xmas a friend ask me to show her around so we ventured off into 25 places in nyc to see and take pictures.

Probably the best part was we saw the tree xmas eve and no one was there its probably the only day and night that the tree is fully light up for 24 hrs in rockerfeller center. 

I don’t really care too much what I do this year, I just want to be around people and enjoy. 

 

-a bit bummed because the girl I liked and thought we had something going maybe, is seeing someone -_- lol I always like the taken ones don’t I fail… well I know okcupid is eh for meeting people.  I don’t know might try one those payed sites for fun… I’m not crazy about it but it would be nice to meet some new people.

 

Anyways Happy early Holidays, be safe and stay warm.

 

Merry Xmas with a 458 ferrari Italia =)

 

 

Empire state

 On the top of the Rock

 Taken two different days but its pretty cool being up on both buildings in 1 week

So i’ve been pretty busy with showing some out of town friends around in nyc.

 

This was a shot from tonight the clouds moved in my favor and wow… I can say I’m glad i went up and waited 5 minute for the clouds to reveal NYC.

 

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public album of the rest

 

 

zero visibility

 

 

 

 

 

 

This week has been nothing but a pain. I know some people like to say how great of a job I have with all the exotic cars, or its at least a job.  I know I’m happy i’m working but I want out, it sucks, there is no reason why I need to get yelled at for no reason by the bipolar boss.  Also there is no need for me to deal with their bullshit.  I got fired by them unofficially4-5 times, then I finally quit after the last straw.  I told them what I wanted and they promised better things this time around.  Somethings have changed somethings have not.  The boss is still the same and randomly lying and throwing fights.

I can’t complain since i’m still working, but I have no way out or place to grow from this job.  Its been 2 years almost since I started with them part time.  Maybe I just need to quit again and start from no job.  It sounds pretty dumb but I’m having a harder time looking for jobs when i’m at a job right now.  I tried a few places and sources, but no luck.  I know times are tough but what am I going to do at a job that has no future with the shady business their doing?

 

I hate this feeling, right now this past week i’ve been stress and freaking out about my surgery this coming thursday.  I know its routine procedure, but I think Grey’s Anatomy is freaking me about dying on the table.  I don’t think i’m going have any problems, but its just scary.  I don’t know how to express it to people nor my friends.  I hate troubling people with the feeling of it, but its not easy talking about it to people.  I don’t expect people to understand it entirely.  I’m not sure how I dealt with the operation 8 years ago.  I only remember bits and pieces that I was freaking out the night before, and when I was getting drugged up.  I couldn’t relax or breathe almost.  I didn’t know what to expect, since I had surgery almost 14 years before it.  As a kid I was a cry baby i’m probably still am. I get emotional, and upset easily, i’m very passionate about the things I love or like to do.  But lately a lot of it has hit some walls, work doesn’t ever help my mood.  My coworkers are awesome for keeping me calm and sane. Without them I think i’d would have taken an ferrari and tried to run the boss over… I swear. 

 

Now a days people are all busy with work, family and other friends.  I’ve seem to be where I was a couple years ago, lost among my friends.  I have some really great friends back then, or are currently really far away.  But some how I can’t find my comfort group always.  I don’t like the idea of jumping groups, it seems like i’m not personal with any one in those groups then.  I don’t know why but I feel like an outcast in all the groups.  I don’t really feel part of anyone’s group.  I don’t really care too much or try to, but this whole week I just felt left out.  I don’t know why I couldn’t get a hold of myself and just go out with a friend or to and be my old spontaneous self.
Live life be free… where has the crazy gone?

 

I don’t want to freak myself out more but the best way is to sort out my head through words.  Drinking doesn’t help me it doesn’t make me happy or sad.  I think what really makes me sad is when I can’t find someone to be around with.  I don’t know but did you ever hate the feeling of getting lost?  I think I always hated it.  I think this past weekend I just wanted to see people who really make me happy or impacted my life.  Now or the past.  I know I can’t see or talk to everyone but I can’t help it to regret a bit. 

 

I’m not sure if I even make any sense, I wonder if my cheery and crazy happiness leads to really bad depression.  Like I live in lala land or i’m in a high when i’m happy.  I just don’t care and keep on doing what I want to do.  But I realize that its just me in this lala land. 

Hopefully nothing will go wrong on thursday and i make a good recovery.

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posted this for now =P

 

i’m no import model haha

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more here

some favorite posted

 

comic con is kind of cool but sometimes filled with really really weird people… not hating but I did get into a fist fight with one a few years back…

high shot !

gurren laggen one my favorite of yoko

 

my friend hand made his domo costume and our friend dressed up as psy

we found the elevator guy !

 

 

friends bro dressed up as master chief in red

my friend victoria made her psylock costume and painted woodedn katanas

 

peach and mario ninjas my friend was pretty cleaver

even plunger knunchucks

these are not your droids

fighting the hulk

 

she loves hairy chewie

no idea what this is

 

family guy chicken

no clue

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Well most of you guys don’t like cars, but I’ve probably had my tsx the longest/highest mileage

204,000 miles 2005

Posted some pictures in here from last tsxclub meet and this past one last night.

I’m not a super crazy car guy but since I had the car from beginning of 2005, I bonded pretty well with all the members of tsxclub and acurazine =)

Kind of like how I am with a bunch of xangan.

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dang…

26 years flew by so quick…